I'm Pregnant!

So my husband and I are pregnant! I thought maybe i could come over here and document all of these experiences. This is my second pregnancy but it feels much more different than the first eight years ago. Ive been having crazy migraines in which could be attributed to my hormone changes, since my blood pressure is normal. So far nothing has truly relieved them for good. Anywho, I feel like being pregnant is such an amazing spiritual journey. It shows you so much about yourself, life, and the universal process of creation. Im especially interested in the wisdom this particular pregnancy will bring to me since I am much further along in my spiritual journey, i am stable in a home, married, already working from home, my relationships are more loving and of quality and I am much more aware than I was before.

So in effort to relieve these headaches, feeling even more stressed because my girlfriend and I have a workshop planned this weekend and guess what it's called?? FLOW THROUGH STRESS, to be honest I have never been so thankful that we didnt get any RSVPs so I dont feel much obligation and before knowing about my migraines, she called and asked if we should cancel it, she was feeling led to cancel already, seeing as there some how ended up being so much confusion on the promotion of it, wont get into those details...but the point is the stars just hadnt been aligning. The irony of it all is the stress relief is just what I need for myself. They say we teach what we need...so there we go...I mean though my life is somewhat stable there are still a lot of stressors, some brought on by my lavish desires to travel & eat good, others brought on by career stress like finishing my book, letting go of being a perfectionist,lack of excitement in this rural town of Tucson, missing my babygirl as she is gone for the summer, bouts of loneliness when my husband is working, doing tons of innerwork and realizing things about myself, missing my culture (Black & Atlantian),real estate deal pressures, the desires to make money whilst I live fully in my purpose, yet possibly thwarted or post poned by my desire to focus fully on nurturing this new life, body pains and starting a new eating & excercise regimen, etc. I mean I could go on and on but all of this, just thinking about gave me a knock in the crown of my head. My spirit is telling me to release all of my cares to it, no worries, but it's difficult. Im always fine when it comes to me but when other lives are involved...STRESS!

My friend let me use his prime as he recommended I watch Legend of Korra...wasnt too keen on purchasing episodes cause that's just something I don't do, but a recommendation movie came up called The Last Airbender. I dont know about you, but these movies have a Matrix like effect on me, I immediately see the reflection of reality as well as spiritual wisdom and this had tons of it hidden in the metaphors of the elements of fire, water, earth and air. One of the teachers said "Water teaches us acceptance we must allow our emotions to flow like water" and he told the boy in order to move forward he had to let go of grief and feel it and stop trying to bury it, he definitely didnt want to allow his grief to cause so much anger in him that he hurt those who killed his family, his purpose was clearly bigger than vengeance as you will see if you watch the movie...however it spoke to me because the biggest part of my physical & spiritual journey was onset by grief, anger, and eventually feelings around vengeance, it was just for different reasons than him but the same nonetheless. I reeeaallly want to finish this post buut my head keeps feeling like someone is taking a hammer to my head so I will finish this discussion later, i didn't have much more to say except how the movie never mentioned Qi Gong but it led me to get up and practice it..it brought temporary relief...maybe if i would have done it more accurately to the practice, it could have done more for me so it led me to research Qi Gong and pregnancy...regardless i had a lovely meditative experience using the moves I previously learned...Maybe Ill tell you more about that in my next post. I am going to attempt to rest now. Good night my beautiful conscious co-creators!